A day in a life of Taz

Halo semua. Guess what? Hari ini ulang tahun saya loh. Saya gak pernah menyangka hari ulang tahun itu bisa se-membahagiakan ini. Hari ini saya bener-bener ngerasa bahagia, serasa kaya mimpi. Persis kaya habis nonton konser.  Pertama, ayah dan bunda, bener-bener bikin gue terharu. Selama 8 tahun belakangan saya sudah gak pernah ngerayain ulang tahun lagi. Bahkan seringnya mereka gak inget kalau 28 September itu saya ulang tahun. Tahun-tahun kemarin sih biasanya mereka baru ingat malam-malam setelah gue kasih kode =)) Dan tiba-tiba tanggal 27 kemarin pas pulang sekolah, tiba-tiba bunda ngomongin tentang mau ngerayain ulang tahun saya yang ke 17 ini. Ya meskipun cuma potong kue dan makan-makan di rumah sama temen-temen deket sih. Diam-diam si bunda udah sms temen-temen deket saya biar pada datang hari ini, udah gitu ternyata mereka udah liat-liat kue di holl4nd bak3ry sama supermarket :") Tapi saya sedikit kecewa juga, yang datang jumlahnya bisa dihitung pakai jari-jari tanga...

Last year of ramadhan holiday. Sunday, August 26, 2012. Gak tau kenapa. Saya galau. Galau, karena setelah hari ini perjuangan saya akan berlangsung nonstop hingga nanti saya diumumkan secara resmi masuk ke perguruan tinggi. Saya berdoa sih semoga negeri, dan kedokteran. (Amin) Om saya dokter, lulusan fkui. Saya ingin menjadi seperti dia. Pintar seperti dia. Sejak kecil sudah menjadi anak yang rajin membaca, tidak melawan orang tua, dan sangat pintar. Dia selalu bilang, "Tasha nanti lulus sma masuk fkunri aja." fyi kenapa unri karena rencananya tahun depan keluarga saya mau pindah kesana. Gak tau kenapa, saya sedikit gak mau kuliah nanti masih tinggal sama orang tua. Pasti apa-apa saya gak bisa mandiri. Saya mau coba fk universitas di Jawa. Memang sih, saingannya pasti berat-berat. Tetapi apa salahnya dicoba? Saya akan berusaha kok. Nah yang bikin miris dan bikin galau, kenapa saya selama liburan ini santai banget sedangkan teman-teman dunia maya saya pada sibuk belaja...

source: favim.com Hi guys! Guess what. I'am a 3rd grader now. Which means one year away until i'm free from the highschool! I've been attending an intensive study course for 3rd grader here, it's called *peeeep* operation. And i'm placed in a............ um..... kind of 'exclusive' class, there are only 7 students there, including me. So, i have a 'friend' here. A guy 'friend' Duh. HE'S HANDSOME. AND HIS SMILE IS CUTE. and i can't stop but smiling everytime he smiles :"> but.......... i don't know his name yet. *throws bricks at self*

Hello guise. I've received my school report book this morning at SMA Negeri 8 Tangerang~ And guess what.............. ranking gue tetap 20. KECE BADAI!!!! Padahal gue udah galau seminggu gara-gara mikirin kemungkinan gue ranking terakhir, atau bahkan lebih parah lagi, gak naik kelas. HUWE AMIT AMIT JABANG BAYI YA ALLAH. Alhamdulillah nilai banyak yang naik (tapi ini pasti nilai akumulasi ditambah nilai ++. jeger.) tapi ada juga yang turun............. ha ha h a a a. Dan kemarin malam gue nazar, kalau gue gak ranking terakhir, gue mau pelajarin buku kimia kelas 10. HAHAHA ADUH PAYAH NIH KENAPA GUE GAK MIKIRIN NAZAR YANG LEBIH ENAK AJA KEMARIN. #plak

Hi people. what do you really think about the definition of examination/test and the purpose of it? Sure we all know, to see how far is our knowledge about some particular subjects. and all this time i had been growing up in a good surrounding, -always be cough fair cough - but now, especially in this 11th grade, i don't feel it at all. like seriously, what's the point in getting good grades but in reality you know almost  nothing ? well it's not like i'm jealous because my grades are lower than yours or something, because even though it is, i still think that you suck and i'm better because i'm not like you. of course yes, you don't want it if your parents see your bad grades, everyone does. but can't you just think even just a little bit for your future or else? nu-uh. see, i have this one friend, and i know that he doesn't have good grades. but this one friend always try his best in exams, he doesn't cheat even once. event though...

Okay so............... last night i slept at 11:30 p.m. and......... i think last night i didn't pray first because i had a bad dream. And it's very absurd k. This morning, i had woken up from my sleep, getting slightly annoyed because the lamp was turned on. someone must be had entered my room. so i turned it off and got back to my sleep. and then i imagined something about oppars and then....... i think i got to my slumber again after that. and there it was. i had a very strange dream. i think i was kissing with someone in my dream =_= but then i saw a scar on my left hand, and that scar was belly-button shaped. eeeeeeeeew sdkjbfvsdkjvbdsk TT__________TT and then........... some worms got out from that scar and walked all over my hand and when i tried to withdraw them from my skin, they left some scar (again), so.... these worms were some kind of.......leech? EEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWW I HATE STICKY-MUSHY ANIMAL LIKE THEM TT_________TT

Can you feel it? do you actually feel the same feeling as me? do you actually feel that we are slowly drifting apart............. We are bestfriends. i always trust you. and i thought i'd never had such a good friend other than you. but now, it's slowly changing. i don't know if it's just me, or you these days prefer being friends with other people and your new friends. okay, i admit it. i am jealous. because usually we always cling to each other, and i can always be open to you. but now............. i don't feel them anymore. you used to be my bestest friend ever, that we always talk about everything randomly and at anytime. ...............i don't know what else to say, but.......... trust me, i'm not that kind of person who easily gets close and be open to other person. i don't know if someday you will regret it or not, because........... we might be separated anytime soon.

Why? I don't like people who forget their old friends once they get new friends. Even though myself feels like i often do it, i know i'm very selfish. BUT, i don't forget. it's just........... i don't get along well anymore with my old friends. and not just some old friends. If they still want to do contacts with me, i'm sure i won't forget (not literally) her/him. so........... to the point. ......though it's not because of me she/he got new friends, i still feel irritated if he/she gets close with his/her new friends who are my friends too. don't know why. i'm selfish, rite?

May 14th of 2012, dear bloggie, Gonna post in bahasa. got tired of blogging with English. lmao. jk. Hari ini, pas berangkat ke sekolah saya: SMA Negeri 8 Tangerang, seperti biasa, tiap hari saya naik motor, nah pas jalan, saya ngerasa kok rasanya motornya goyang ya............. dan sayapun langsung tahu bahwa ban belakangnya itu kempes. Dan saya pun mulai mikir, `gimana kalau pompa ban dulu...`, tetapi waktu berkata tidak. lololol kalau saya berhenti buat pompa ban pasti telat sampai sekolah. Jadi akhirnya saya pun terus jalan sampai akhirnya sampai di sekolah....... selama diperjalanan, saya benar-benar hati-hati. pakai `benar-benar` loh. tapi tetep aja ngebut sih HAHAHA dan pas pulang sekolah, tadinya rencana mau pompa ban dianterin Fitri, tapi ternyata, ban saya itu bukan sekedar kempes, tapi pecah. Alhasil dengan berbaik hati Arka sama Aldy bantuin bawa motor saya ke bengkel :') makasih banget ya kalian semua <3 dan kerennya lagi adalah, pas saya jemput motor say...

what the actual fck. i forgot to post here yesterday and also the day before yesterday. *sigh* it's actually because i didn't know what to post huhuhuh ;___; but now i know what to post........ so......... these days.... i've been sleepy constantly and quite oftenly in class. i'm not trying to getting used to sleep at 11p.m, but it just happened almost every day though. WHO TO BLAME? EXO-K! *blames innocent people* ............... yo people suddenly i don't know what else to write. lmao. bye. ....... EH NO. I REMEMBER NAOOO. so, yesterday morning i was in a hurry because i'am almost late to school a.k.a SMA Negeri 8 Tangerang, and guess what. my motorbike's spion is only one. only one, people. my dad said he just had to get rid of the other spion hhhhhhhhh and there i was sneaking my way to school without getting caught by the policemen HAHAHA i'm a ninja btw.

ok, so........ as a human, i can't be easily satisfied with things i already have. like......... i can speak Indonesian fluently, and English a little, but i still want to learn the other languages as well. especially Minangese and Korean. haha yep my parents are both Minangese but i can't speak Minangese even though i can understand it whenever people speak Minangese. and Korean.......... the reason is obvious enough, i like.......nope. i LOVE kpop. that's why i have to learn Korean. and now, since there's EXO-M, i can't stand it because i don't understand a word from their songs. fml. I WANNA LEARN MANDARIN. RIGHT. NOW. LU HAN CUTIE GE TEACH ME PUHREASE

okay, so............. previously, i've been constantly saying that i'm proud to be single. I AM, actually. But.......... as the time goes by......... i don't know. i think every time i see some romantic scenes from movies, my heart goes thump thump and then............... there it comes, the mupeng feeling. LMAOOOOOOO omg omg omg hahaha this is so crazy but....... just by seeing a boy holding her girl's hand and smiling at her in movies, i feel like i'm dying. I WANT TO BE THAT GIRL. i want a boyfriend. HUHUHUHU THERE I SAID IT. background music: 나혼자 (Alone) - SISTAR. Why am i eating alone again? Watching movie alone Singing alone and I cry and cry You’re gone, regrets are useless Alone again today Whoo Whoo Whoo Whoo Whoo Whoo Whoo Whoo I walk alone, watch TV alone I get drunk alone, cry and cry like this everyday Love was sweet, under the shade of breakup I can’t fall asleep again tonight Whoo Whoo Whoo Whoo Whoo Whoo Whoo Whoo

.................... i've been feeling not good about my health these days. i don't know. i often feel extremely sleeply at class. i've never felt this sleepy before. and the awkward thing is i can sleep at class. usually, i can't. but....... that's not the thing i want to talk about right now actually. i've been feeling itchy at that-part-of-my-body-which-i-can-not-tell-here since last month. so i just scratch it everytime it felt itchy. and now what. the upper part of it was........ bleeding(?) i don't know, it isn't literally bleeding, but it produces some sort of thick liquid and when it dried, it feels so damn hurt. i've been thinking this day............. can it be........ cancer? astaghfirullah amit-amit jabang bayi ah T_T Ya Allah tolong sembuhkanlah segera luka aneh ini........... i hope it's just my feeling. i hope it isn't cancer. i hope it's just a normal wound. amen! ;____;

i hate it. i hate them. i hate people these days and their ways of thinking. have you ever seen someone had an accident while riding her/his motorbike in front of your own eyes? what would you do? as for me, i would help that person. except if i have to hurry to go to school or there are already many people helping him/her. what the fck is wrong with this world. or should i just say my country, Indonesia. I think most of Indonesian people don't have common sense. For God's sake! if you see someone who is in a trouble you should help! not just stand there and watch. the most irritating is when you slipped from your motorbike and the cars behind you only sound their car's horn. i wanna say many curses for this sheettty stupid car-driver-n00bs. why can't those people just get out from their cars and help? sheeeed. ok actually the main reason why i'm so pissed off by this thing is because this morning i experienced it. and it's the 3rd time i've...

this post is going to be so............ embarassing. for me. hh-_- just wanna share a story about me and my greediness. I'm greedy because: i already watched ss4 day 1 but i really wanted to watch day 3's show too. Is it that hard? So last Sunday i went to ancol (again) with Ayu and Cindi with hope we'll get 3 concert tickets, but eventually we didn't get any. I was really sad that time but i couldn't cry. and almost everybody there who didn't get the ticket just like us were protesting outside the Ancol Beach City mall. so we just joined them. i did had fun while protesting that time, but i didn't know why, right after the concert was ended and i met my mom who was just out from the venue, i cried in front of her after telling that i didn't get the ticket and just waited outside until the concert had ended. what made me really wanna cry more and more is....... my mom looked like she didn't care about me crying. at all. dunno why b...

hi people. so....... my mother's birthday is on 27th April and it means........ 2 more days. and...... on 27th April, me, my mom, and Dea, are going to watch Super Junior's concert named Super Show 4 at MEIS, Ancol. do you get it? no? NO? okay let me get it straight. My mom is A HUGE FAN of CHOI SIWON. She's absolutely a fangirl just like me. (like mother like daughter) and i think, she will be very happy if CHOI SIWON says happy birthday to her by himself. face to face. with my mom. ok ok ok just by thinking this crazy idea makes me go skgjhdjkghbdjkfgbdk SO, i'm gonna make a banner like this: " 시원 오빠, 오늘은 우리 엄마 생일이에요. 우리 엄만 오빠 정말 좋아하세요 그러니깐 엄마께 생일 축하한다고 좀 해 주세요, 부탁합니다!" literally, it means: " Siwon oppa, today is my mother's birthday. She adores you so much. say happy birthday to her, please!" Oh God, please make this come true. It will be the best birthday present for my mother. and i myself will be totally happy, for sure. Amen ...

SKDFGSDJKGSDKBSJDK LIKE SRSLY OK. THE ALBUM THAT I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR HAS FINALLY CAME. BUT GUESS WHAT. I DIDN'T GET THE POSTER. DSJKFHSDJKFHSDKB Penyesalan datangnya belakangan emang ;___; kenapa coba waktu itu gue harus galau-galau mau preorder exo-k apa exo-m juga sampe pada akhirnya pun gue jadinya order cuma exo-k doang dan udah lewat tanggal release ;____; dan kampretnya, GAK DAPET POSTER DJFGHDJKGBDFJGBDK nyesek adalah sudah menanti-nanti album dengan posternya tapi ternyata gak dapet poster. fml. fmpe. frustasi mikirin poster exo-k. Lain kali exo-k release album, i'm gonna make sure that i preordered so i'll get the poster. FML FML FML. mau gak mau gue harus ikhlas, tapi tetep aja pengen posternya....... ayolah siapa pun ayo dong jual poster exo-k nya ke saya. saya beli deh tapi budget maksimal 40 ribu aja nih </3 HAHAHA gue stress ah btw, saya juga gak begitu puas sama mini album ini. dari foto-foto yang saya liat, kesannya albumnya ini GED...

Lol hello people. i come just to post about an unimportant thing, so..... EXO-K, kenapa ganteng-ganteng semua? Ini pertama kalinya gue nemu boyband yang semua membernya gantengnya bener-bener tidak meragukan. maksudnya, gue bisa aja ganti-ganti bias karena semuanya emang saya demen. becky's the most unf one though. but also is chanyeol. and suho. and d.o. and sehun. and kai. *commits suicide* Kok jadi begini. ok, seriously, becky itu yang paling-paling deh. *don't regret for saying this later loh, Tas.* Tapi kenapa saya majang fotonya Suho!? Ah, anyways, kenapa saya gak begitu gilanya sama EXO-M ya? Maybe i wasn't meant to be with a chinese boy. alibi tapi sebenernya saya demen sama kris, dan lu han kok ;___; yah tapi gitu, saya gak bisa cinta sama EXO-M seperti cinta saya kepada EXO-K. lalallaalallalal Padahal awalnya saya justru malah lebih demen EXO-M. Beneran. Gara-gara disodorin lu han terus sama bunda.

Duh. Dunia ini. Penuh sekali dengan manusia yang tidak punya rasa terima kasih ya. Ya walaupun saya juga ngerasa begitu. Ini ada orang ngomong dia pengen pindah ke Singapore aja, gak mau tinggal di Indonesia lagi. Pake ngomong "kalau kalian (yang tinggal di luar negeri) tinggal di negara ini, kalian pasti bakal nyesel deh kalau bilang negara ini bagus" negara ini yang di maksud = Indonesia. helllooooooo. please gurl. Harusnya berterima kasih karena Indonesia menerima lo dengan sepenuh hati buat jadi warganya. Lo gak harus bayar kan buat jadi warga Indonesia? Coba kalau lo pindah kewarganegaraan, pasti bayar. <s>sigh. gak penting tas</s> Lo juga besar di sini kan. Orang tua lo pun begitu. Orang kaya lo itu, menurut gue adalah tipe orang yang selalu ogah-ogahan setiap ikut upacara 17 Agustus, dan gak peduli sama negara sendiri. ya bukan? Sekian curhat saya. Terima Kasih.

Yah saya memang bukan pria, tapi begitulah judul sebuah tulisan ini yang saya temukan di news feed facebook saya. Setelah membaca ini, hati saya jadi sedikit tergerak. Ya, saya memang sebenernya udah mulai pakai kerudung sejak kelas 10 semester 2 kemarin. Tapi memang masih ada sedikit yang mengganjel di hati saya, yang bikin saya belum sepenuhnya ikhlas pakai kerudung. Tapi Alhamdulillah setelah baca ini, ganjelan-ganjelan(?) itu berkurang. CATATAN SEORANG PRIA TAHUKAH KAMU, mengapa saya suka wanita berjilbab? Jawabannya sederhana karena mata saya susah diajak kompromi. Bisa dibayangkan bagaimana saya harus mengontrol mata saya ini, dari mulai keluar rumah, hingga kembali masuk rumah lagi. Dan kamu tahu? Dikampus tempat saya seharian disana, kearah manapun saya memandang selalu membuat mata saya terbelalak. Hanya 2 arah yang bisa membuat saya tenang, yaitu mendongak keatas langit atau menunduk ketanah.. Melihat ke depan, ada perempuan berlenggok dengan seutas TANK TOP...