A day in a life of Taz

Last year of ramadhan holiday. Sunday, August 26, 2012. Gak tau kenapa. Saya galau. Galau, karena setelah hari ini perjuangan saya akan berlangsung nonstop hingga nanti saya diumumkan secara resmi masuk ke perguruan tinggi. Saya berdoa sih semoga negeri, dan kedokteran. (Amin) Om saya dokter, lulusan fkui. Saya ingin menjadi seperti dia. Pintar seperti dia. Sejak kecil sudah menjadi anak yang rajin membaca, tidak melawan orang tua, dan sangat pintar. Dia selalu bilang, "Tasha nanti lulus sma masuk fkunri aja." fyi kenapa unri karena rencananya tahun depan keluarga saya mau pindah kesana. Gak tau kenapa, saya sedikit gak mau kuliah nanti masih tinggal sama orang tua. Pasti apa-apa saya gak bisa mandiri. Saya mau coba fk universitas di Jawa. Memang sih, saingannya pasti berat-berat. Tetapi apa salahnya dicoba? Saya akan berusaha kok. Nah yang bikin miris dan bikin galau, kenapa saya selama liburan ini santai banget sedangkan teman-teman dunia maya saya pada sibuk belaja...

source: favim.com Hi guys! Guess what. I'am a 3rd grader now. Which means one year away until i'm free from the highschool! I've been attending an intensive study course for 3rd grader here, it's called *peeeep* operation. And i'm placed in a............ um..... kind of 'exclusive' class, there are only 7 students there, including me. So, i have a 'friend' here. A guy 'friend' Duh. HE'S HANDSOME. AND HIS SMILE IS CUTE. and i can't stop but smiling everytime he smiles :"> but.......... i don't know his name yet. *throws bricks at self*

Hello guise. I've received my school report book this morning at SMA Negeri 8 Tangerang~ And guess what.............. ranking gue tetap 20. KECE BADAI!!!! Padahal gue udah galau seminggu gara-gara mikirin kemungkinan gue ranking terakhir, atau bahkan lebih parah lagi, gak naik kelas. HUWE AMIT AMIT JABANG BAYI YA ALLAH. Alhamdulillah nilai banyak yang naik (tapi ini pasti nilai akumulasi ditambah nilai ++. jeger.) tapi ada juga yang turun............. ha ha h a a a. Dan kemarin malam gue nazar, kalau gue gak ranking terakhir, gue mau pelajarin buku kimia kelas 10. HAHAHA ADUH PAYAH NIH KENAPA GUE GAK MIKIRIN NAZAR YANG LEBIH ENAK AJA KEMARIN. #plak

Hi people. what do you really think about the definition of examination/test and the purpose of it? Sure we all know, to see how far is our knowledge about some particular subjects. and all this time i had been growing up in a good surrounding, -always be cough fair cough - but now, especially in this 11th grade, i don't feel it at all. like seriously, what's the point in getting good grades but in reality you know almost  nothing ? well it's not like i'm jealous because my grades are lower than yours or something, because even though it is, i still think that you suck and i'm better because i'm not like you. of course yes, you don't want it if your parents see your bad grades, everyone does. but can't you just think even just a little bit for your future or else? nu-uh. see, i have this one friend, and i know that he doesn't have good grades. but this one friend always try his best in exams, he doesn't cheat even once. event though...

Okay so............... last night i slept at 11:30 p.m. and......... i think last night i didn't pray first because i had a bad dream. And it's very absurd k. This morning, i had woken up from my sleep, getting slightly annoyed because the lamp was turned on. someone must be had entered my room. so i turned it off and got back to my sleep. and then i imagined something about oppars and then....... i think i got to my slumber again after that. and there it was. i had a very strange dream. i think i was kissing with someone in my dream =_= but then i saw a scar on my left hand, and that scar was belly-button shaped. eeeeeeeeew sdkjbfvsdkjvbdsk TT__________TT and then........... some worms got out from that scar and walked all over my hand and when i tried to withdraw them from my skin, they left some scar (again), so.... these worms were some kind of.......leech? EEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWW I HATE STICKY-MUSHY ANIMAL LIKE THEM TT_________TT

Can you feel it? do you actually feel the same feeling as me? do you actually feel that we are slowly drifting apart............. We are bestfriends. i always trust you. and i thought i'd never had such a good friend other than you. but now, it's slowly changing. i don't know if it's just me, or you these days prefer being friends with other people and your new friends. okay, i admit it. i am jealous. because usually we always cling to each other, and i can always be open to you. but now............. i don't feel them anymore. you used to be my bestest friend ever, that we always talk about everything randomly and at anytime. ...............i don't know what else to say, but.......... trust me, i'm not that kind of person who easily gets close and be open to other person. i don't know if someday you will regret it or not, because........... we might be separated anytime soon.

Why? I don't like people who forget their old friends once they get new friends. Even though myself feels like i often do it, i know i'm very selfish. BUT, i don't forget. it's just........... i don't get along well anymore with my old friends. and not just some old friends. If they still want to do contacts with me, i'm sure i won't forget (not literally) her/him. so........... to the point. ......though it's not because of me she/he got new friends, i still feel irritated if he/she gets close with his/her new friends who are my friends too. don't know why. i'm selfish, rite?