A day in a life of Taz

 Hello! All this time I always said to myself that I wanna post on my blog about my trips to save the memories, but I ended up not doing so. My excuse was always "I'm still stressed by my side hustle job" but even until now that project hasn't ended yet... so I guess i'll just write anyway. So this year, 2024 is such an exciting year for me, because finally, my king Byun Baekhyun has left SM and found his own company called INB100. It was a huge milestone for him and seeing his progress ever since has made me nothing less than HAPPY, SO PROUD OF HIM<3 yeah, long story short, after establishing INB100, he held a fanmeeting (snack party) and not long after that he announced his first offline Asia Tour called Lonsdaleite. Oh. My. God. And my mind automatically thought that I HAVE TO WATCH IT LIVE NOT ONLY IN JAKARTA. So my first choice was Singapore. The ticketing?? It was hell........... I didn't get the ticket that i want. I told my friends who helped me in ...

 Hello everyone! Wow, it's been a long time since my last post isn't it? Well, in this post I just wanna share my culinary experiences from my trip to Pekanbaru, last month. I stayed there from 10th - 17th August. It was for work. (as I've stated in my previous post, I work as a Revit instructor, and I went there to conduct a training for a company) So, here are the pics and some stories from the trip: First day, here's a pic that I took from my lunch at the airport while waiting for my flight to Pekanbaru. It's Curry Mee from OldTown White Coffee. One word: Delish. After arriving at Dafam Hotel Pekanbaru, I went straight to the shower and took a short nap. After Maghrib, I was starting to feel hungry so I went downstairs to the hotel lobby and found out that the hotel has this kinda open simple bar, and it has karaoke system. So if there were people at the receptionist waiting to check in or out, they would hear people sing loudly from this bar.  Long story short, ...

Hellooooo So, in my previous blog posts, i've mentioned that i've got a job. Oh, and if i didn't explain about my job, here it is. My title is an Application Engineer. At first I also didn't understand the job description. Long story short, I got this job (and actually I'm already into the 13 months of this job), and I learnt that my main job is to conduct trainings in revit and BIM. I was a quite shy person so it's actually really uncomfortable for me to speak in front of many people. But probably a little part of it has changed since i entered university. Just a little part. So if you imagine, my first time teaching Revit in my office was a big milestone for me. Oh, and i remember that time, a well-known architect who is also my manager's close friend also attended my class. Yeah, you guess it right. I WAS DEAD SCARED. My first time was pretty painful, but thankfully my 2 coworkers helped me from the back of the room. Since that day, i thou...

The worst part of this is Everytime you wake up from slumber, you remember that all of this is real and not just a mere nightmare.. your mind starts to wander and your heart will start to build up those uneasy feelings and anxiety again which you have tried so so hard to erase before you fall asleep... your brain will try to fight those feelings again, but sadly. Your heart will always win... and it hurts.... it makes you afraid to fall asleep... Why can't my heart goes along with my head? You foolish softie!! B-but..... Oprah said Listen to Your Heart, Not Your Head. Wait....... which one of them is actually the voices inside my heart? I don't even understand anymore.

Do you know? I was actually hurt Seeing you Spending days and days with her Doing everything from A to Z with her I was always feeling hurt everytime i remember the old times Did you even realize? Thankfully Whenever the jealousy came, I always succeed at forgetting you By thinking Oh, you're just someone from the past Or, we were nothing So everytime we met We just shrug each other off Or act like nothing freakin happened Like we didn't even have those memories It hurted me, to be honest But damn, Now i realize You meant something to me. I really regret losing you that time. And even until now. Why wasn't i with you that time? That could've been me Holding your hands Going on trips with you Taking photos with you Exchanging stories with you Spending my beautiful youth with you Just because of the insecurities and trust issue I let you go I let go of all the things that could've had happened if only we were brave enough Then, Y...

Hello everyone! And goodnight!!! Wowww it's been almost a decade since the last time i wrote here. Lmaaooooo Many things have happened. From when i graduated from high school. Got accepted into Sultan Ageng Tirtayasa University in Cilegon, majoring Civil Engineering. The struggles in uni. Various organization activities, student exchange program to South Korea, and the struggle in making my final thesis. And finally I've just graduated from uni last January. Im officially a bachelor of engineering now. Hehe. And now, I'm currently taking my free time before i have to start applying for jobs. Even if it's called 'free time', It's so pressuring tho, because my uncles and aunts always asks me " Tasha have you got a job?? " Everytime we meet. They have really high expectations for me, since almost all of my cousins from my dad are already employed and have good salary, even as far as working in a very successful company and going back ...

Halo semua. Guess what? Hari ini ulang tahun saya loh. Saya gak pernah menyangka hari ulang tahun itu bisa se-membahagiakan ini. Hari ini saya bener-bener ngerasa bahagia, serasa kaya mimpi. Persis kaya habis nonton konser.  Pertama, ayah dan bunda, bener-bener bikin gue terharu. Selama 8 tahun belakangan saya sudah gak pernah ngerayain ulang tahun lagi. Bahkan seringnya mereka gak inget kalau 28 September itu saya ulang tahun. Tahun-tahun kemarin sih biasanya mereka baru ingat malam-malam setelah gue kasih kode =)) Dan tiba-tiba tanggal 27 kemarin pas pulang sekolah, tiba-tiba bunda ngomongin tentang mau ngerayain ulang tahun saya yang ke 17 ini. Ya meskipun cuma potong kue dan makan-makan di rumah sama temen-temen deket sih. Diam-diam si bunda udah sms temen-temen deket saya biar pada datang hari ini, udah gitu ternyata mereka udah liat-liat kue di holl4nd bak3ry sama supermarket :") Tapi saya sedikit kecewa juga, yang datang jumlahnya bisa dihitung pakai jari-jari tanga...

Last year of ramadhan holiday. Sunday, August 26, 2012. Gak tau kenapa. Saya galau. Galau, karena setelah hari ini perjuangan saya akan berlangsung nonstop hingga nanti saya diumumkan secara resmi masuk ke perguruan tinggi. Saya berdoa sih semoga negeri, dan kedokteran. (Amin) Om saya dokter, lulusan fkui. Saya ingin menjadi seperti dia. Pintar seperti dia. Sejak kecil sudah menjadi anak yang rajin membaca, tidak melawan orang tua, dan sangat pintar. Dia selalu bilang, "Tasha nanti lulus sma masuk fkunri aja." fyi kenapa unri karena rencananya tahun depan keluarga saya mau pindah kesana. Gak tau kenapa, saya sedikit gak mau kuliah nanti masih tinggal sama orang tua. Pasti apa-apa saya gak bisa mandiri. Saya mau coba fk universitas di Jawa. Memang sih, saingannya pasti berat-berat. Tetapi apa salahnya dicoba? Saya akan berusaha kok. Nah yang bikin miris dan bikin galau, kenapa saya selama liburan ini santai banget sedangkan teman-teman dunia maya saya pada sibuk belaja...

source: favim.com Hi guys! Guess what. I'am a 3rd grader now. Which means one year away until i'm free from the highschool! I've been attending an intensive study course for 3rd grader here, it's called *peeeep* operation. And i'm placed in a............ um..... kind of 'exclusive' class, there are only 7 students there, including me. So, i have a 'friend' here. A guy 'friend' Duh. HE'S HANDSOME. AND HIS SMILE IS CUTE. and i can't stop but smiling everytime he smiles :"> but.......... i don't know his name yet. *throws bricks at self*

Hello guise. I've received my school report book this morning at SMA Negeri 8 Tangerang~ And guess what.............. ranking gue tetap 20. KECE BADAI!!!! Padahal gue udah galau seminggu gara-gara mikirin kemungkinan gue ranking terakhir, atau bahkan lebih parah lagi, gak naik kelas. HUWE AMIT AMIT JABANG BAYI YA ALLAH. Alhamdulillah nilai banyak yang naik (tapi ini pasti nilai akumulasi ditambah nilai ++. jeger.) tapi ada juga yang turun............. ha ha h a a a. Dan kemarin malam gue nazar, kalau gue gak ranking terakhir, gue mau pelajarin buku kimia kelas 10. HAHAHA ADUH PAYAH NIH KENAPA GUE GAK MIKIRIN NAZAR YANG LEBIH ENAK AJA KEMARIN. #plak

Hi people. what do you really think about the definition of examination/test and the purpose of it? Sure we all know, to see how far is our knowledge about some particular subjects. and all this time i had been growing up in a good surrounding, -always be cough fair cough - but now, especially in this 11th grade, i don't feel it at all. like seriously, what's the point in getting good grades but in reality you know almost  nothing ? well it's not like i'm jealous because my grades are lower than yours or something, because even though it is, i still think that you suck and i'm better because i'm not like you. of course yes, you don't want it if your parents see your bad grades, everyone does. but can't you just think even just a little bit for your future or else? nu-uh. see, i have this one friend, and i know that he doesn't have good grades. but this one friend always try his best in exams, he doesn't cheat even once. event though...

Okay so............... last night i slept at 11:30 p.m. and......... i think last night i didn't pray first because i had a bad dream. And it's very absurd k. This morning, i had woken up from my sleep, getting slightly annoyed because the lamp was turned on. someone must be had entered my room. so i turned it off and got back to my sleep. and then i imagined something about oppars and then....... i think i got to my slumber again after that. and there it was. i had a very strange dream. i think i was kissing with someone in my dream =_= but then i saw a scar on my left hand, and that scar was belly-button shaped. eeeeeeeeew sdkjbfvsdkjvbdsk TT__________TT and then........... some worms got out from that scar and walked all over my hand and when i tried to withdraw them from my skin, they left some scar (again), so.... these worms were some kind of.......leech? EEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWW I HATE STICKY-MUSHY ANIMAL LIKE THEM TT_________TT

Can you feel it? do you actually feel the same feeling as me? do you actually feel that we are slowly drifting apart............. We are bestfriends. i always trust you. and i thought i'd never had such a good friend other than you. but now, it's slowly changing. i don't know if it's just me, or you these days prefer being friends with other people and your new friends. okay, i admit it. i am jealous. because usually we always cling to each other, and i can always be open to you. but now............. i don't feel them anymore. you used to be my bestest friend ever, that we always talk about everything randomly and at anytime. ...............i don't know what else to say, but.......... trust me, i'm not that kind of person who easily gets close and be open to other person. i don't know if someday you will regret it or not, because........... we might be separated anytime soon.

Why? I don't like people who forget their old friends once they get new friends. Even though myself feels like i often do it, i know i'm very selfish. BUT, i don't forget. it's just........... i don't get along well anymore with my old friends. and not just some old friends. If they still want to do contacts with me, i'm sure i won't forget (not literally) her/him. so........... to the point. ......though it's not because of me she/he got new friends, i still feel irritated if he/she gets close with his/her new friends who are my friends too. don't know why. i'm selfish, rite?

14. this date is really crucial in South Korea. Facts: February 14th: Valentine's Day. yeah, everyone know this day. On this day, girls would give chocolate to the boys they like/love. March 14th: White Day. White Day is also observed in South Korea with the men paying back women who have given them chocolate on Valentine's Day with usually candy instead of chocolate, with an additional later Black Day observed for those sharing singleness. source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/White_Day April 14th: Black Day Black Day (April 14) is a South Korean informal tradition for single people to get together and eat jajangmyeon (noodles with black bean sauce); sometimes a white sauce is mixed for those who did not celebrate White Day. The idea is that those who did not give or receive gifts on Valentine's Day (February 14) or White Day (March 14) can get together and eat jajangmyeon, white Korean noodles with black bean sauce, to celebrate their singledom. source...

May 14th of 2012, dear bloggie, Gonna post in bahasa. got tired of blogging with English. lmao. jk. Hari ini, pas berangkat ke sekolah saya: SMA Negeri 8 Tangerang, seperti biasa, tiap hari saya naik motor, nah pas jalan, saya ngerasa kok rasanya motornya goyang ya............. dan sayapun langsung tahu bahwa ban belakangnya itu kempes. Dan saya pun mulai mikir, `gimana kalau pompa ban dulu...`, tetapi waktu berkata tidak. lololol kalau saya berhenti buat pompa ban pasti telat sampai sekolah. Jadi akhirnya saya pun terus jalan sampai akhirnya sampai di sekolah....... selama diperjalanan, saya benar-benar hati-hati. pakai `benar-benar` loh. tapi tetep aja ngebut sih HAHAHA dan pas pulang sekolah, tadinya rencana mau pompa ban dianterin Fitri, tapi ternyata, ban saya itu bukan sekedar kempes, tapi pecah. Alhasil dengan berbaik hati Arka sama Aldy bantuin bawa motor saya ke bengkel :') makasih banget ya kalian semua <3 dan kerennya lagi adalah, pas saya jemput motor say...

..........Firstly, please tell me, HOW COULD BOYS TEND TO KILL GIRLS JUST BY WEARING A SIMPLE TUXEDO? JUST BY STYLING THEIR HAIR? JUST BY A SIMPLE SMILE AND WINK? omg this is a totally fangirls' opinion. if you're not a fangirl, then you won't ever feel this awkward feeling. and these boys aren't just `boys`, they're celebrities, OUR OPPARS. and i'm telling this, specifically, EXO-K n_________n stanning EXO-K is........ somewhat a guilty pleasure :/ you'll get a dirty mind everytime you see them. LOL it's because they're hot as hell. source: as tagged omg omg omg like seriously how are these 6 precious boys be a human in anyway uda kyungsoo, are u hooman? UDA BECKY WATER U DOIN' HERE. GO TO OUR ROOM. NAOOOO u r too handsome uda suho. the only virus i've ever loved. PARK CHANYEOL ;_; hi uda sehun. take me to paradise? n___n DAHELL kkamjong. DAHELL.

Careless, careless. Shoot anonymous, anonymous. Heartless, mindless. No one. who care about me? It feels like I’m turning away as I have lost it There’s no choice but to hold it in Though I shut my eyes MAMA! Now answer me and tell me why people have changed Has there even been a beautiful time before? They forgot how to love and lost their heart to care They’re busy living with their backs turned on each other Envy, you’re filled with the desire to kill behind an anonymous mass Even after seeing it you’re filled with hunger Are you happy now? Why won’t we look each other in the eye anymore? Why won’t we communicate? Why won’t we love? We shed tears at the painful reality once again Please say that we could change things if we wanted, mama mama At some point, we have voluntarily trapped ourselves in a smart prison 0 & 1 were used to create a digit for my personality There’s no life, emotion or warmth but just garbage language A desolatel...

source: as tagged hi people! i want to tell a story about some students in my class a.k.a zewetQuatre of SMA Negeri 8 Tangerang; who......... have tried their luck in selling things. at first i thought, what is this class. is this class some sort of sellers class? lmao this is not. so, there's Bethsy who's a pioneer in selling jewelries in my class. well, necklaces, specifically. and then, there are also Ahad and Fitri, who also tried to sell jewelries. HAHAHA and this caused a short chaos in my class. like, why don't they sell something else, not jewelries. and then........ food. I love this part. there's Jenny / Puput (or both?) who sell snacks. well as for our class, we don't have to walk that far to the canteen, we just have to walk to their table and buy the snacks we want. YOOOHOOOO (◡‿◡✿) and there's Ika who sells..... telurmie? it's the combination of egg and noodle and then fried together. SHO DELICIOUS♥ UGH I'M HUNGRY T___T...

what the actual fck. i forgot to post here yesterday and also the day before yesterday. *sigh* it's actually because i didn't know what to post huhuhuh ;___; but now i know what to post........ so......... these days.... i've been sleepy constantly and quite oftenly in class. i'm not trying to getting used to sleep at 11p.m, but it just happened almost every day though. WHO TO BLAME? EXO-K! *blames innocent people* ............... yo people suddenly i don't know what else to write. lmao. bye. ....... EH NO. I REMEMBER NAOOO. so, yesterday morning i was in a hurry because i'am almost late to school a.k.a SMA Negeri 8 Tangerang, and guess what. my motorbike's spion is only one. only one, people. my dad said he just had to get rid of the other spion hhhhhhhhh and there i was sneaking my way to school without getting caught by the policemen HAHAHA i'm a ninja btw.