A day in a life of Taz

The worst part of this is Everytime you wake up from slumber, you remember that all of this is real and not just a mere nightmare.. your mind starts to wander and your heart will start to build up those uneasy feelings and anxiety again which you have tried so so hard to erase before you fall asleep... your brain will try to fight those feelings again, but sadly. Your heart will always win... and it hurts.... it makes you afraid to fall asleep... Why can't my heart goes along with my head? You foolish softie!! B-but..... Oprah said Listen to Your Heart, Not Your Head. Wait....... which one of them is actually the voices inside my heart? I don't even understand anymore.

Do you know? I was actually hurt Seeing you Spending days and days with her Doing everything from A to Z with her I was always feeling hurt everytime i remember the old times Did you even realize? Thankfully Whenever the jealousy came, I always succeed at forgetting you By thinking Oh, you're just someone from the past Or, we were nothing So everytime we met We just shrug each other off Or act like nothing freakin happened Like we didn't even have those memories It hurted me, to be honest But damn, Now i realize You meant something to me. I really regret losing you that time. And even until now. Why wasn't i with you that time? That could've been me Holding your hands Going on trips with you Taking photos with you Exchanging stories with you Spending my beautiful youth with you Just because of the insecurities and trust issue I let you go I let go of all the things that could've had happened if only we were brave enough Then, Y...

Hello everyone! And goodnight!!! Wowww it's been almost a decade since the last time i wrote here. Lmaaooooo Many things have happened. From when i graduated from high school. Got accepted into Sultan Ageng Tirtayasa University in Cilegon, majoring Civil Engineering. The struggles in uni. Various organization activities, student exchange program to South Korea, and the struggle in making my final thesis. And finally I've just graduated from uni last January. Im officially a bachelor of engineering now. Hehe. And now, I'm currently taking my free time before i have to start applying for jobs. Even if it's called 'free time', It's so pressuring tho, because my uncles and aunts always asks me " Tasha have you got a job?? " Everytime we meet. They have really high expectations for me, since almost all of my cousins from my dad are already employed and have good salary, even as far as working in a very successful company and going back ...

Halo semua. Guess what? Hari ini ulang tahun saya loh. Saya gak pernah menyangka hari ulang tahun itu bisa se-membahagiakan ini. Hari ini saya bener-bener ngerasa bahagia, serasa kaya mimpi. Persis kaya habis nonton konser.  Pertama, ayah dan bunda, bener-bener bikin gue terharu. Selama 8 tahun belakangan saya sudah gak pernah ngerayain ulang tahun lagi. Bahkan seringnya mereka gak inget kalau 28 September itu saya ulang tahun. Tahun-tahun kemarin sih biasanya mereka baru ingat malam-malam setelah gue kasih kode =)) Dan tiba-tiba tanggal 27 kemarin pas pulang sekolah, tiba-tiba bunda ngomongin tentang mau ngerayain ulang tahun saya yang ke 17 ini. Ya meskipun cuma potong kue dan makan-makan di rumah sama temen-temen deket sih. Diam-diam si bunda udah sms temen-temen deket saya biar pada datang hari ini, udah gitu ternyata mereka udah liat-liat kue di holl4nd bak3ry sama supermarket :") Tapi saya sedikit kecewa juga, yang datang jumlahnya bisa dihitung pakai jari-jari tanga...

Last year of ramadhan holiday. Sunday, August 26, 2012. Gak tau kenapa. Saya galau. Galau, karena setelah hari ini perjuangan saya akan berlangsung nonstop hingga nanti saya diumumkan secara resmi masuk ke perguruan tinggi. Saya berdoa sih semoga negeri, dan kedokteran. (Amin) Om saya dokter, lulusan fkui. Saya ingin menjadi seperti dia. Pintar seperti dia. Sejak kecil sudah menjadi anak yang rajin membaca, tidak melawan orang tua, dan sangat pintar. Dia selalu bilang, "Tasha nanti lulus sma masuk fkunri aja." fyi kenapa unri karena rencananya tahun depan keluarga saya mau pindah kesana. Gak tau kenapa, saya sedikit gak mau kuliah nanti masih tinggal sama orang tua. Pasti apa-apa saya gak bisa mandiri. Saya mau coba fk universitas di Jawa. Memang sih, saingannya pasti berat-berat. Tetapi apa salahnya dicoba? Saya akan berusaha kok. Nah yang bikin miris dan bikin galau, kenapa saya selama liburan ini santai banget sedangkan teman-teman dunia maya saya pada sibuk belaja...

source: favim.com Hi guys! Guess what. I'am a 3rd grader now. Which means one year away until i'm free from the highschool! I've been attending an intensive study course for 3rd grader here, it's called *peeeep* operation. And i'm placed in a............ um..... kind of 'exclusive' class, there are only 7 students there, including me. So, i have a 'friend' here. A guy 'friend' Duh. HE'S HANDSOME. AND HIS SMILE IS CUTE. and i can't stop but smiling everytime he smiles :"> but.......... i don't know his name yet. *throws bricks at self*

Hello guise. I've received my school report book this morning at SMA Negeri 8 Tangerang~ And guess what.............. ranking gue tetap 20. KECE BADAI!!!! Padahal gue udah galau seminggu gara-gara mikirin kemungkinan gue ranking terakhir, atau bahkan lebih parah lagi, gak naik kelas. HUWE AMIT AMIT JABANG BAYI YA ALLAH. Alhamdulillah nilai banyak yang naik (tapi ini pasti nilai akumulasi ditambah nilai ++. jeger.) tapi ada juga yang turun............. ha ha h a a a. Dan kemarin malam gue nazar, kalau gue gak ranking terakhir, gue mau pelajarin buku kimia kelas 10. HAHAHA ADUH PAYAH NIH KENAPA GUE GAK MIKIRIN NAZAR YANG LEBIH ENAK AJA KEMARIN. #plak